Wanting

wanting, wanting
hard not to want
hard not to listen to the voices
wanting
hard not to hope
hard not to feel
the slippery slide of hope
through the heart
up the throat
waiting in the throat to speak
its wanting
hard not to shout
shout out the wanting
shout out the hoping
not caring who will hear
who will hurt
who will heal
shhhhhh
hush
no wanting
no hoping
no shouting
whisper and wait